For it is not the manner of your eyes ceasing me Or the way into my soul depth thou doth see Nor the caressing touch of your skin on mine 'Tis not much the stealing of thou time May it be the stare one holds from you Or how thou spirit becomes onto May it … Continue reading When thou falls
Verse 1 Just because you can't feel the fit You're not alone, there's more to it When no one can feel what's going on Listen for you, because we get it wrong Every shape has their own place Even the sadness, hurt etched on a face If it wasn't for darkness the stars wouldn't shine … Continue reading You have a beating heart
I've been thinking about Voids & Searching, longing, meaning, and the real confusion that comes with it. It is true that some days I long for something I don't understand. It's bigger than me. It's another kind of hand, that right now makes no sense. But I'm still curious. I wonder is it fate that … Continue reading Pieces of me
He's felt overwhelmed for a while due to an intensity he's been feeling. It's been difficult to understand. He's not sure he does. Expression seems so difficult to achieve, it's up there alongside interpretation. He'll often sift through pictures of Art trying to find pieces that reflect his feelings, his heart. To see the expression … Continue reading Inexpressible
Is it your first impression or mine? Still searching for something through my time A destination unknown - to the station behind the illusion Everyday life decisions made but based on confusion Rubbed shoulders, mingled, the big and the small I've collected scars or just tokens from each of them all But I still can't … Continue reading Lacuna
Do you ever just think to yourself what the heck am I doing with myself? For me, I seem to flip between different versions of myself.. sometimes my head seems in the game of life where I'm following all the norms and conforming to life's pressures and societies expectations & other times I just want … Continue reading The flip.
First things first. Have you discovered Pale waves. These could potentially become my new fav band. Their music is insanely good & vibrant - that's not a word I use. Weird. Anyway so good. My song for today of New Years Eve by Pale waves, go listen. Then listen to 18 & there's a honey. … Continue reading I don’t want to be alone on NYE.
This week I finished my night shifts 🎉 I know I'll spend half of the rest of my life working them but I'm so pleased to have gotten them done. Staying up all night (Without liquid grapes) is hard 😑 even for the experienced midwives. Next week I return to day shifts for my final … Continue reading The Fourth Week
I didn't like this week as much as last week. The difference I think may be down to a lack of self control. My feelings owned me this week, which meant my behaviour was affected by my decision making based on 💩 feelings. I really could have done with backing off with the pressure too … Continue reading ssergorP
Will I always see the worst Scared to trust & afraid to burst Glum and blue at the thought of you Not needing me like I need true Will I ever stop the fight Control the hurt that steals the light Can I heal from this point on Did you sing our final song Will … Continue reading She Sleeps
The week began with a colour change to my hair. The dark wasn't sitting, I'm way to pale. I felt I looked older too (literally clinging) so I've now joined Jessica Rabbit, Ariel, Merida and Vivienne Ward in the Racing Red Zone. Recently ageing has become a 'thing' for me. I seem to have more … Continue reading Racing Red
The week started out positive. Mondays blue sky motivation kicking in, had me planning for a spot of exercise in the evening 🏃♀️ (this may not have happened, don’t judge One of the besties brightened my day booking us in for a Spa day the following week (insert 'yes' scene from when Sally met Harry here). … Continue reading Sunday blog
"All you have to do is love him" My mind replays him telling me. The pain hits, the tears fall. I imagine them in bed together in the room they rented. The pain hits, the tears fall. I can't accept it. I feel like I need space. We should be apart. I think of not … Continue reading Indecision
I wish that I could answer your call That you'd be there when I'm at your door So we could have those gentle conversations About all of my current hesitations That I could just sit by you We could even have a drink or two And I could get to know all of your ways … Continue reading Your call
I haven't written an update for a while. Since I've finished University life has been somewhat sluggish. The plan was take a little bit of time off until around April. The reason being to give my head a much needed break, rest, refuel & ignite. The kids had been getting the not so best side … Continue reading After Uni Break
It's 01:54am. I have been led in bed for hours. Sleep isn't coming to me. Duuuuck sake. It's probably my fault. Or is it yours? Yeh you. Joking. 1) A few late nights over the weekend on repeat pretty much since finishing uni. 2) Not been working out at all except extended arm to pour … Continue reading Insomnia