First things first. Have you discovered Pale waves. These could potentially become my new fav band. Their music is insanely good & vibrant - that's not a word I use. Weird. Anyway so good. My song for today of New Years Eve by Pale waves, go listen. Then listen to 18 & there's a honey. … Continue reading I don’t want to be alone on NYE.
This week I finished my night shifts 🎉 I know I'll spend half of the rest of my life working them but I'm so pleased to have gotten them done. Staying up all night (Without liquid grapes) is hard 😑 even for the experienced midwives. Next week I return to day shifts for my final … Continue reading The Fourth Week
I didn't like this week as much as last week. The difference I think may be down to a lack of self control. My feelings owned me this week, which meant my behaviour was affected by my decision making based on 💩 feelings. I really could have done with backing off with the pressure too … Continue reading ssergorP
Will I always see the worst Scared to trust & afraid to burst Glum and blue at the thought of you Not needing me like I need true Will I ever stop the fight Control the hurt that steals the light Can I heal from this point on Did you sing our final song Will … Continue reading She Sleeps
The week began with a colour change to my hair. The dark wasn't sitting, I'm way to pale. I felt I looked older too (literally clinging) so I've now joined Jessica Rabbit, Ariel, Merida and Vivienne Ward in the Racing Red Zone. Recently ageing has become a 'thing' for me. I seem to have more … Continue reading Racing Red
The week started out positive. Mondays blue sky motivation kicking in, had me planning for a spot of exercise in the evening 🏃♀️ (this may not have happened, don’t judge One of the besties brightened my day booking us in for a Spa day the following week (insert 'yes' scene from when Sally met Harry here). … Continue reading Sunday blog
Apologising in case this blog lacks attitude or thrills. I am tired & want to be sleeping but it's Sunday and I don't want be another week late in posting so I'm playing by the rules... (😯) Monday was the day my important documents had to be submitted until uni to be sent to the … Continue reading Take it if we can
In my usual fashion I'm late to post again. Meh.. it's becoming a thing. This first week of January has seen me awake. Way too much awake for my liking, although it's not all bad. The insomnia doesn't seem to be shifting & strangely I've found that this time last year I also had insomnia. … Continue reading The boring one ☝🏻
Christmas Eve Carl worked. He's picked up extra shifts to help get us balanced again as Christmas wipes us out. I woke up feeling a bit stressed. A mix of things were getting to me. I was feeling bothered that Carl still hadn't gotten me a ring. Last year he told me he would propose … Continue reading Christmas 🎄
Late late late again! With posting my blog.. Pace is picking up and I'm slowing down. Feed me energy. I need it. It's the week before Christmas 🎄 and a week it has been. I've not had much of a build up to Christmas and nobody in our house if particularly feeling festive which sucks … Continue reading Could it be?
It's Christmas in 15 days and I am back out on placement, riding the night train, the kids are busy, the house is busy and the routine is lost somewhere with the housework! Carnage is occurring. I can feel the anxiety creeping in. I need a plan, a routine, to know what's coming next. After … Continue reading Cameo chaos